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A Secret Kept Hidden ~
My insides are knotted
and screaming out
I've had to deal with
this so long
The abuse I endured when
I was a child
I had to learn how to
become strong.
I've kept this secret
buried deep within
To this day, no one knows
My scars are all inside
of me
Outwardly, it doesn't
show.
Nightmares visit me all
the time
Reliving the abuse
inflicted upon me
Struggling to make it
through the day
Begging the Lord to hear
my plea.
So many broken
relationships
No one to lean on in my
time of need
I'm all alone with this
pain inside
My life is on hold, I
can't proceed.
I carry the shame of what
took place
You didn't give me any
choice
Afraid to utter the word
"abuse"
I'm silent, you won't
hear my voice.
Each day I just go
through the motions
Envying the life you seem
to lead
I see you hug your
children and spouse
But love means nothing to
me.
You took away my youth,
my life
You destroyed my soul
inside
Depression is all I've
ever known
Each day I sit and cry.
I'm tired of keeping up
this facade
I was afraid to even face
you
You have to realize what
you've done to me
Don't you know what
you've put me through?
The years have seemed to
race on by
And I still keep this
secret hid
You passed away several
years ago
But the Good Lord knows
what you did!
Therapy and friends are
what I need now
To help me realize this
was not my fault
To put the blame where it
belongs
This guilt trip I'm on
needs to come to a halt.
So I pray to our Lord
everyday
Asking Him to heal me
I want to lead a normal
life
And become what He wants
me to be.
Chee Chee Martin
© 2006
This poem is dedicated to
everyone who has suffered
from abuse!
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